Aug 18 2018 Notes

• Running out of time, first half on vision , second half should be on normal hings
• Winter is long and nothing outside - months
• Portugal - everyone has deep tie to family
• Midlife crisis
• How much time for father?
• How much time for me?
• Identifying issues with good goal f making better, but have no way to make it better
• Awareness is about moving forward
• Goal - to get to know myself
• Don't know.if.it will be ok
• Physically like smeagle - all enervy sapped by the world
• Don't have it. Where will it come.from.
• Redneckng is the only thing making me feel better
• Not sleeping , acid reflux, low energy, hot flashes. Could be body changes.
• Every muscle hurts all the time
• External pressure - need to work.
• Beating myself up. Guilt and need.
• Grieving, midlife, loneliness.
• I wish I were a trust fund or now - money solves all issues.
• Can you envision an option that could provide peace
• If not had a genie, I would have money and focus on self growth, invest in home so I don't not have to do.it myself, money to trveland see people. That takes worry off. But the real deal - you and I living in harmony, my people here being awesome, we have excellent conversations. Plrogram immersion goes well, and we go south for winter.
• PTSD from obi - deeply effed to point of panicking about my own work
• I want to live here, do obi, change the world. PTSD on missth ng the relationships of life.
• Here was a wound and it was infected. Fear of work amplified.
• It's internal, so can't run from it
• 3 things for mental health- relationships, communion with nature, Self-Discovery and meditation
• Echo chamber - having to do.it alone
• Ditch me like an old boot if I'm incapable
• Wake 7 to 8:30. Sleep is not good.
• Keep a journal? More or less
• Maysville to Dallas is 9 hours
• KC to Belize City is 44 hours